i am the killer

its 3:18am

2005-06-14T03:17:00.000-04:00

i am bored as FUCK.
seriously.
gabe just came back.
they are gone to climb a roof, will come get me in an hour.
an hour eh...

hmmm. the boredom continues...

KJYRQUIWYRILWHFLIsyLFUHSLIFHGSLIFY

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2005-06-03T13:49:00.000-04:00

last night i went to the 281 with cass and manda...
oh man!!! naked men!!!

and i saw the biggest penis i have ever seen.
seriously!!!!

CRAZY.

bored?

2005-06-02T01:57:00.000-04:00

ya this post will be useless.
i don't post as often anymore, but that is due to a lack of INTERESTING things happening in my STUPID LIFE. ya it's pretty damned boring right now... except!

friday i will be seeing the LOVELY maam holly at FOUFS for her's and lena's birthday... oh what fun THAT shall be ;) drunken good times to be had by ALL!!! and maybe my dream will FINALLY come true and holly will ask me to MARRY her!!!! oh my. we shall have to see!!

saturday should also be QUITE entertaining, as lena is having a party at her place... hmmm.... HMMMM... more drunken good times?!?! and more HOLLY! oh my. i am a LUCKY one this weekend... hehehe...

so turns out this post wasn't so useless, because it made me very excited about the weekend. now if you'll excuse me, time to wash the dye out of my hair!

alcohol

2005-05-22T14:13:00.000-04:00

i was drunk the past 4 nights in a row now.
and im feeling slightly retarded.
so, i believe it's time for a break!

insomnia...

2005-05-18T01:15:00.000-04:00

so i can't sleep! again!
well maybe it's because i don't try.
i feel somewhat tired.
i just don't know anymore.
things have been really weird lately.
and confusing.
i feel as if i am just going through motions.
days are meaningless.
i miss my friends :(

makin' a porn...

2005-05-03T22:07:00.000-04:00

so i am directing/producing a porn.
no one takes me seriously, but i am serious goddamnit!!!!
hopefully we'll get enough people to make it happen.

interested? let me know.

danger! danger! high voltage. when we touch. when we kiss.

2005-04-30T23:16:00.000-04:00

k. so last night, cass and i went to foufs
and popped some e.
let me tell YOU, it was a damn good time!
not what i expected...
cause i wasn't all uber horney and talkative.
and wanting to be touched every 5 seconds.
but it was still fun.
i danced and it felt amazing.
and hugs were pretty cool too. but not from everyone.
we were pretty fucked up. rad.
cass was halarious. always smiling a BIG smile.
also, saw this guy mark i know from around.
and found out he has a BOYFRIEND!
it was sooo hot though.
THEY were hot.
and they danced with us.

awesome. <3

ahhh!!!!

2005-04-27T01:22:00.000-04:00

ok i am seriously sex deprived.
and it's beggining to drive me a little insane.
and i can't concentrate on my homework anymore.
or anything else for that matter.

*cries*

boys suck.

2005-04-21T20:50:00.000-04:00

ya. that pretty much sums it up.

fever = sucks to the MAX

2005-04-15T14:30:00.000-04:00

so.

i was supposed to go to foufs tonight. and see the lovely and fantastically fabulous holly. but will that be happening? no. of course not. and do you know why? BECAUSE I AM SICK GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!!!!!! it makes me want to cry because as soon as i take some tylenol, i feel better... but when it wears off i start shivering like theres no tommorow, that or sweating bullets, and everything just starts to ache and i get all miserable and whiney. now who wants to bring someone like THAT to foufs? plus i was supposed to take e, and i was ALLLLLLLLLLL excited. and now what? nothing. i will most likely spend today, as i did yesterday, watching The Oc Season 1 on DVD, well the rest of it anyway, since i am about half way through i believe. and not that thats a bad thing. but seriously. holly + foufs = AWESOMETASTIC!! and now i am missing out on all that :(:(:(:(

i am tempted to go anyway... say screw the sickness...

as i have done in the past...

we'll see. im debating.

"Trust me, i'm a virgin"

2005-04-10T22:49:00.000-04:00

it's my new tee shirt.

ya. you know it's true.

uhm... ya.

2005-04-04T01:26:00.000-04:00

so im sitting here kinda thinking about how pathetic my life can be at times. ok i lied. my life is pathetic ALL the time. haha. no but seriously, things have happened over the past few days, and i wont go into detail about them, because well... if you want to know (and by you i mean the whole like 2 people who read this) you can just ask me. not like you'll care. but you know. i just dont really know how to feel at this point, and it kind of makes me sad.

it really bothers me that i get so attached to some people really quickly. and this creates problems, like my getting really sad for no reason. i just wish i understood some people better. and i wish i knew how THEY felt. it would make my life a hell of a lot easier.

ugh. i am SO frusterated right now. it seriously SUCKS.

something addictive.

2005-04-01T00:38:00.000-05:00

ya. so myspace is something addictive.

in other news, i have a stats test at 10am.
did i mention i suck at math?

amanda and i will be shooting more footage tommorow night.
terra cotta.
drunken children gallivanting.
should be interesting, as long as it doesnt rain.

i think tonight i will try and go to bed early
its not even 1am!

The Postal Service - Such Great Heights. <3
(why am i listening to the postal service?!?)

bandwagons sure are fun...

2005-03-29T23:29:00.000-05:00

i've jumped on the bandwagon. oops.

myspace

so go. now.

why does allison rock so hard?

2005-03-27T02:11:00.000-05:00

observe:

smith. says:
Three pieces of string standing outside a pub. One goes in and asks for a pint, the barman says, 'Are you a piece of string?' the little guy says, 'Yes, I am' and the barman replies, 'Get out, I already told you you're barred.' So he does and tells his mates, so the second one tries his luck but gets the same response so the third one says tie me in a knot and fray my ends.
smith. says:
He walks into the pub and the barman immediately says, 'Are you a piece of string?' he quickly replies, 'Nope, I'm a frayed knot.
smith. says:
Mahatma Gandhi, as you know, walked barefoot most of the time which produced an impressive set of calluses on his feet. He also ate very little which made him rather frail and with his odd diet, he suffered from bad breath. This made him...what? (Oh, crumbs, this is so bad, it's good) A super callused fragile mystic hexed by halitosis.
smith. says:
interesting? perhaps not. but it's there for your entertainment..

now, if THAT didn't just rock your socks,
i really don't know what will...

pierced

2005-03-26T01:06:00.000-05:00

so i did it. i got my vertical hood piercing.

what a day

2005-03-21T18:43:00.000-05:00

ok first of all, nila rox my SOX, hard-fucking-core,
because she lent me...

THE OC SEASON 1 ON DVD!!!!

like, wow. wow. i watch it and i drool.

of course, that could be due to the fact that i got my wisdom teeth pulled out today, and i was all frozen up and spilled like half the sauce from my tortellini on my shirt because i couldn't move my mouth enough to chew properly...
but who cares!!

so when i grow up i'm going to marry seth cohen.
and have all of his emo children.
and we will listen to death cab and live happily ever after.
the end.

my mouth hurts.
maybe i should listen to the dentist when he tells me
not to eat solid food until friday.

maybe... or not.

ok i need a life or something.

2005-03-20T03:21:00.000-05:00

ok. so you know what. yesterday i drove a jetta, which makes me better than you. yea thats right. BETTER I SAY! oh nila and amanda and i had fun. driving around, blasting franz ferdinand, stalking people in the jetta, trying to figure out how to reverse it, putting gas instead of diesel into it... yes, good times were DEFINETLEY had by all. which reminds me. i need to learn how to spell DEFINETLEY cause i never fucking know, spell check always corrects me. like, i never, EVER spell it right. i just cant figure it out. its too hard. fuck it. fuck it ALL!

but right now im really sad. why? nila made me get drunk, and than i couldnt stop thinking about him and talking about him and wishing he liked me and wishing i wasnt stalking him but actually going to his house to SEE him because he was mine, well he is mine, just not in the way id like him to be and oh god hes gorgeous so hot and so awesome <3<3<3

IT HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE IS PAIN PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 = ouch

now excuse me while i go listen to some social d.

the oc <3

2005-03-18T00:08:00.000-05:00

well right now seems to be an appropriate time for an update!

the oc was sooo good tonight man. go marisa and ryan! they are SO getting back together. as for seth and summer, well we all know who seth's TRUE love is. *points to self* yea thats right. don't deny the truth!!!! <3 seth cohen <3 oh how i heart him. so summer, you best be watchin your back, beeatch!

haha oh god. i wish i lived in the oc. and by the oc i mean the tv show, not the actual place. well actually i kinda mean both. makes sense? hell yes.

meh

2005-03-09T01:02:00.000-05:00

i've been drinking and now i realize i'm pretty depressed.
yay for alcohol...

what a crazy night...

2005-03-07T06:03:00.000-05:00

it's 6:03am. at 8:20pm last night gabe and i took speed. let me just say, the night was insane. i've never talked so much in my life. it was soooooo cool. but now i have to go to school :(

confusion

2005-03-06T03:06:00.000-05:00

so. this is where tonight stands. went to holly and jps place. lena was there too. we all took some speed. i was pretty reluctant at first, it being my first time taking speed and all, i wasnt quite sure what would happen to me. but after a little reassurance from my lovely friends, i figured, why the hell not. go for it. and i did. and than i was scared. like, "what did hell did i just do??" type of scared. cause it wasnt like i could turn back anymore. what was done was done.

fast forward an hour. sitting and watching the tv has sedated me, and i am wondering when im going to start feeling something. as is everyone else basically. cause wasnt it supposed to start working about 45 minutes after we took it?

two hours later, still nothing. so much for that!! its too bad, really, i was kinda looking forward to seeing what would happen.

so i come home and the house reeks. of what? im not quite sure. although i did find a clue. on a note gabe left me, his last words are these:

i smell, sorry.

party?

2005-03-02T14:35:00.000-05:00

so my mommy is all gone. to australia. for almost 3 weeks.
wow, i've never been left alone in my whole entire life.

what am i going to do?!?

i'm sad :(

2005-02-27T02:03:00.000-05:00

cam whore!

i hate...

2005-02-24T22:34:00.000-05:00

i hate when people touch my things
i hate people who do stupid things
i hate "friends" who won't talk to me for stupid reasons
i hate people who are happy all the time
i hate people who have perfect lives
i hate people who think they are better than everyone else
i hate the boys i can't have
i hate the girls who have those boys
i hate the girls who are prettier than me
i hate getting up early
i hate working early
i hate work in general
i hate stupid pointless homework
i hate not being able to sleep
i hate constantly being late for everything
i hate missing the bus
i hate driving the speed limit
i hate my cell phone bill
i hate being sick
i hate missing cool things
i hate pretending to be happy

i hate being so angry

blah.

2005-02-24T18:01:00.000-05:00

feeling kind of blah. which shouldn't be, since i actually got to SLEEP IN today, and i just had a test that i know i did well on, and i got my acceptance letter from concordia (not that i WASN'T expecting to get in, but at least i know for sure now!) and also well it's thursday which means tommorow is friday which means THE WEEKEND. which means going out, and alcohol of course. yay. i don't know... *sigh* i really need to get away from this blah-ness.

on the plus side... uhmmm... hmmmm...

2005-02-22T18:05:00.000-05:00

oh man social distortion was AWESOMTASTIC! <3

m&m porn

2005-02-19T14:48:00.000-05:00

so clydes last night. pretty good time.
chels and i, well i believe we are friends again, hopefully this time it will last!!!
what did suck, was that holly and lena weren't having fun, and they left early :(
so i think next time it'll be foufs.

this morning i had to work mother fucking early.

and there were these m&m toys, and oh man did justine have fun. when justine got to work, the m&m toys were in the middle of an orgy. it was m&m porn, hardcore!!!!! those crazy bastards, all they wanted to do was fuck! they even wanted to get hugo in on the action! misses green m&m was ALLL over him... but things got kinda sketchy when the kids came around lookin for some action, and mister green m&m was more than willing to indulge. oh man talk about michael jackson in m&m form. that fuckin perve!

no i am not crazy despite what you may think.

what a shitty week...

2005-02-16T15:38:00.000-05:00

so this has been a shitty week... (how redundant)

haven't been feeling very well all week, and i don't mean physically. i'm not sick or anything. i just feel so blah all the time. i don't want to get out of bed, i don't want to go to school, i don't want to apply for university, i don't want to go out, i don't want to do anything. it's annoying, because i have to do all these things and more, so i force myself to do them and that just makes it all worse. ugh and now i have to go to work. i was considering calling in sick like i did last wednesday, but i think i might save it for saturday... we'll see, we'll see. maybe i'll be feeling better? i don't know. what i do know that i can't wait for this week to be over. friday night, going out with holly and lena and some other people.

maybe alcohol will cure my problems!

grrrr anger...

2005-02-14T19:29:00.000-05:00

so APPARENTLY my blood isn't GOOD enough for those stupid héma-québec people.
you know what? you people can kiss my ass!!!!
yea, just cause i don't have enough iron, and i have low blood pressure doesn't mean that i don't have good blood ok!
my blood is spiffy. *shakes fist*

yea i'm angry alright.

holly and i went out to eat and it was yummy.
mmmm wok cafe.
except i ate too much and now i'm full. not a good plan.

we even saw corey there. with his girlfriend.

FUCK VALENTINES DAY!!!!

piercings

2005-02-12T12:54:00.000-05:00

so yesterday,
one of my friends (who will remain nameless) got a genital piercing,
more specifically a horizontal hood piercing.
veeeeeery interesting.
i was in the room with her while she did it, i even saw it and took pictures for her!
but there is no way in hell they are ever making an apperance here.

stupid metro...

2005-02-10T18:38:00.000-05:00

some scary lady was staring at me on the metro today.
i don't know why!!!

it was freaky.

STOP STARING AT ME!!!!!

pull my hair

2005-02-08T23:44:00.000-05:00

BRIGHT EYES - PULL MY HAIR

is the passion all gone? or is it still newly wed?

if all this heat is doing is making us stick to the bed

then there is no life to revive

but if the hunger is still there, burried somewhere inside

covered up by the boredom we've been trying to hide

then dig it up and devour

and it will be more like a song

and less like its math

if you pull on my hair, and bite me like that

and the truth is that i can't hardly wait

and i don't care if we stay up too late

don't answer the phone, don't answer the phone...

fuck off...

2005-02-06T18:06:00.000-05:00

some fucking asshole posted some pretty fucked up comments in my, rob's and val's blog's... so wtv... i deleted the previous post... what the hell is wrong with people... i would really like to know how they can just go and say shitty things to people, without even knowing them. anyway he was a fucking coward, he didn't even post under his own name. jerk.

FOUR IN THE AM!

2005-01-30T03:47:00.000-05:00

so uhm today i went to concordia to the open house and like they had this table about insect biology, and uhm like i got to hold like a tarantula and a millipede, it was like so totally awesome oh wow omfg you guys... sick stuff... sick stuff...

i WiSh I wUz A tWeLvE yR oLd WiT aOl BiTcHeS cUz Dat WuLd Be BiTcHiN hOt StUfF OMFG?!!?!?!>#@# u GuYz!!!!@@@!!!!~~!!

sorry... it's been done WAY too many times... its almost 4am ok... gimme a freakin break.

oooo update-tastic.

2005-01-23T03:46:00.000-05:00

time for an update.

unfortunatly, alcohol and acetaminophen (yes thats a fancy way of saying TYLENOL) have turned my brain to sludge. uh-oh my liver is angry. grrrr. bad justine says mister liver, bad! i'm sorry mister liver. i really am. i promise to take better care of you next time. really... i will even feed you some yummyness. what do you like to eat? mister liver says he enjoys green vegetables. okidoo. you got yourself a DEAL. i will eat something green. but it might not be a vegetable... no? that's bad. ok i'll try i swear. in the meantime, have s'more jack daniels... hahah that was a joke, get it??? oh dear. angry liver.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

i love being a cheap drunk.

birthday!!!

2005-01-16T17:13:00.000-05:00

last night at foufs was freakin awesome! <3

SHANNON WENT IN THE MOSH PIT. oh man.

allison was very drunk... and so was i.
good time were had by all. i believe... hehe.

oh yes. i saw 3 movies in the theater this week:

White Noise - wait til it comes out on video. and then wait until it's no longer a "new release". seriously. what a disapointement.

The Manson Family - lots of sex, lots of violence, and lots of acid. pretty cool movie. interesting, but i think you really do have to have some background information on charles manson and the family before you see this movie. recommended reading: helter skelter. i'm in the process.

Kinsey - very good. go see it, worth the $10. it's funny too. except for that guy who'd fuck anything that moved... that guy was seriously creepy. oh and it's amusing to see just how little people knew about sex. man. courses on human sexuality should be mandatory.

that is all.

yes i rock.

2005-01-12T22:04:00.000-05:00

got my Social D ticket. ooohhh yea.

<3

2005-01-09T19:00:00.000-05:00

<3<3<3<3<3

i didn't see him today =(
but i saw him yesterday. and it made me SO happy...

it kills me. <3

?

2005-01-07T15:58:00.000-05:00

does anyone else have fucked up dreams after they drink?

cause fuck... i swear to god... they are so real... and i wake up, and i feel traumatized, and upset, and angry, and confused, and hurt, even though i know it was just a dream.

what the hell.

loser

2005-01-05T16:34:00.000-05:00

because i am a loser, i am writing a post.
announcing that it is my birthday.

and even though NO ONE will read this...
i still felt like i needed to do it.
because i like to announce my birthday to the world :)

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

yay i'm excited.

monopoly

2005-01-03T03:59:00.000-05:00

ooohhhh... i kick ASS at monopoly. yes.
gabe and i played for 3 hours, and who won???? that's right. me!

it is now almost 4 am... i am sooo tired... but i won!!

he even promised that if i won he'd eat the garbage donut.
and did he??? NO!
gabe, you're a sore loser.
don't cry cause i'm better than you.
cry cause you lost... loser...
I HAD ALL 4 RAILWAYS!!!!
don't you feel like such a dumbass for selling me Short Line?
i bet you do!

"it'll be like illegal monopoly!!!"

HAPPY 2005!!!

2005-01-01T18:09:00.000-05:00

ok happy new years firstly. last night was pretty fun. apprently cass and i drank an entire bottle of vodka, although we're not really sure about that one. some of it ended up on the floor (way to go cass - haha jk, although for future reference, NEVER let cass hold ANYTHING when she has been drinking. seriously, she spills/drops EVERYTHING) while most ended up in us. yes... fun times were had by all. well i think. at about 5am we decided we were hungry, and went on the search for something that was open. would you believe it, we found some donut/coffee shop thingy! mmm sandwiches.

i can't believe it's 2005, and in 4 days (on January 5 to be exact) i will be 19. i feel so... OLD... jeebus. it's crazy how fast time flies. this year has been... interesting, but i wouldn't say the best. in fact, it was a pretty shitty year now that i think back. don't get me wrong, not everything about it was bad. it just really seems like it went by way too fast, and that nothing of great significance happened, which sort of makes me sad. at the same time, i don't really judge my life by years either... time passes, and things happen, and that's all there is to it. so i won't say that i hope this year will be better than the last, because i just don't think about life in those terms.

anyway, i will end on this note:
i didn't steal anyone's shoes last night. go me.

last post of 2004

2004-12-30T18:06:00.000-05:00

that is, unless something REALLY cool and post-worthy happens tommorow.

i got the new rufus wainwright cd, want two, among other things for christmas. well sort of. i got 2 copies of the new strung out cd, exile in oblivion, so i went to exchange it today. and that's what i'm listening to now. rufus rocks. and the new strung out cd is sock rocking goodness.
so listen to both!

also i must add, that val met the hottest guy ever at work... oh man. jealous.

so happy new years bitches. everyone best be going out to celebrate. hardcore.

what the hell?

2004-12-28T22:25:00.000-05:00

i have an ear infection.

isn't that something you only get when you're a kid? fuck.

*edit*
noooooooo... i just want to get people preggers.
but boys, only boys.

...

2004-12-26T13:18:00.000-05:00

You are 29% Sketchy

How sketchy are you?

oh yea. rock on.

spiffyness

2004-12-25T20:33:00.000-05:00

joyeux noelle tout le monde.

i ate lots of yummy food over these past 2 days, just as i'm sure everyone else has. and i got some spiffy gifts. SPIFFY! oh ya.

everyone must go here.

it's the SKETCHY quiz.

oh the hilarity never ends.

why the dentist SUCKS!

2004-12-23T01:19:00.000-05:00

my gums took SUCH a beating today
oh man

see, the dentist has this little pick, with which he scrapes teeth to clean them. and, since i refuse to floss (brushing is just fine thank you very much! i have never ever had a cavity!), he likes to take this little pick, and pick at my gums until they are hardcore bleeding, at which point he makes either a cheesy joke or a scary comment.

my brother got: "hey looks like you're gonna need a blood transfusion!" (cheesy joke)
i got: "do you want to have gum disease when you're older???" (scary comment)

suuuure! poke fun at gabe, but scare the shit out of me!!!

WELL I CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOUR LITTLE PLAN MISTER, AND IT AIN'T WORKIN ON ME BUDDY! NO SIREE! FLOSS? I DON'T THINK SO!!!

i think it's time i started flossing.

on a similiar note, i was also informed that my top wisdom teeth are comming in. and that they will most likely have to be removed.

hey mister dentist?
WHY DON'T YOU JUST USE YOUR LITTLE PICK AND PICK MY FUCKING WISDOM TEETH OUT?!? WOULD THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY, HUH???

today is tuesday

2004-12-21T23:15:00.000-05:00

hmm...

- an angry shopper threw a flyer at me
- i learnt, through GL's blog, how green day influenced the beatles by travelling back in time (yes go donnie darko!)
- this fucking idiot guy dropped a 12 of beer. (now that is some SERIOUS alcohol abuse. )
- i... uhm... k yea thats all i got

i need to think up something interesting to post. suggestions, anyone?!?

an awesome song

2004-12-21T13:00:00.000-05:00

C'mon C'mon by the Von Bondies

everyone listen to it! NOW!!!

alexisonfire = hardcore awesome.

2004-12-20T00:52:00.000-05:00

ok this is how the day went:

work - 8:00am. too damn early. wore the santa hat. see, the santa hat works on 2 levels -

1 - it makes me look christmasy, which, although i admit i dislike the holidays, it's cute nonetheless.

2 - it gives me EMO hair! i love it.

so, despite the fact that i was working, and it was bloody fucking early, i had EMO hair.
so i was happy. =)

nightime - time for alexisonfire. oh man. oh man. the excitement! stupid coat check people though... coat check was freakin sold out! what the hell! so blair payed off the coat check girl to check our coats anyway... good job blair! *thumbs up*

the show was AMAZING. but this is not surprising. alexisonfire is a great live band, and i cannot stress this more. they have so much fucking energy. and so many good songs. and they actually have talent. and george is damned sexy. ;)

however, nothing compares to seeing them at l'x... and the very first time i heard little girls pointing and laughing. =) it was a very emo moment, back when i didn't know what emo moments were!!!!

sadly though, they did not play this song. and their set was rather short. but that's ok. i still love them...

so... tired...

2004-12-18T18:42:00.000-05:00

today was sucky. i had like, 2 hours sleep last night because when we got home from foufs, léna realized that she had the flu and i had to drive her home. to vaudreuil. at 415am. oh my... what an adventure THAT was. it's not that i minded, i mean she was sick, what else was i supposed to do? but the fact that i had to get up at 9 for work... oh yea, and there was my mom, waking me up at 7:15 to inform me that the lights on jp's car were still on (because i took his car). yea i think i was half asleep when i got home.

on the plus side, i saw uhm... well we won't mention his name. but i came up with a brilliant plan to get him! oh and it's going to work... so very well. i hope. he is HOT ok! i mean, even alex admitted it! that has gotta count for something. ok so back to the plan. well i won't realy go into detail, but it involves me, a bottle of tequila (thanks pat!), him and of course his sexy bed-head hair and tight black pants. (not TOO tight though...cause that's just wrong!) hehehe. =)

End of the Century: The Story of The Ramones

2004-12-16T00:17:00.000-05:00

i saw it again tonight. second time. a fucking good movie, i must say. all the people who haven't seen it are missing out, hardcore. alas, it is no longer showing at cinema du parc, so these people will have to:

a) wait until it comes out on DVD (which will be in who knows how long!)
b) wait until cinema du parc shows it again (which may or may not happen, depending)

i could go on and on and on about it, but i won't. because that's lame.

i will say, however, that The Filth and The Fury now has some tough competition.

uh oh...

2004-12-15T00:09:00.000-05:00

oh dear. i am stoned. again.

making tortillini high is quite challenging. however, it is also quite rewarding.

guess who i saw today. =) (on second thought, don't!)

seagull.

2004-12-14T01:04:00.000-05:00

i found a dollar in my garbage. and a candy, which i subsequently gave to gabe. i think.

we smoked a joint (gabe and i). he told me one of our neighbours was named seagull. actually it's segal or something, but i thought seagull was funnier.

arsam said he hates my skeleton. haha. i laugh.

do what now?

2004-12-13T00:06:00.000-05:00

getting up tommorow seems somewhat pointless, even though i actually have things to do.
such as go downtown to école to do some random things and then work.

however, i don't really see myself having the motivation to get out of bed.

what's the point?

(no title)

2004-12-12T16:16:00.000-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!!!!!
(i know it was december 9th)

ok so APPARENTLY alex and pat don't like my new boots. well you know what guys? kiss.my.ass

yea you read correctly.

pink, with fur trim (not real i might add) and freakin pom-poms on the tie-strings. i mean how could you go wrong? if that's not cool, i simply don't know what is.

we got a christmas tree. it's so cute! and i love that it's snowed... snow is so pretty. it makes me happy :)

café campus is looking like a definite possibility this evening. perhaps...

christmas sucks.

2004-12-11T14:45:00.000-05:00

Who took the Bomp from the Bompalompalomp?
Who took the Ram from the Ramalamading dong?

Yes. foufs on thursday was awesome. i had a great deal of fun. we even took a taxi home instead of the bus! yea that's how cool we are! it was nice and warm instead of... not nice and cold.

aside from that nothing is particularly new or interesting. i sewed up my pants, which have now become my work pants. yup. how exciting. and i got spiffy winter boots! oooooo

i don't like christmas because it reminds me of misery. even though everything's supposed to be joyful and cheery. ok, it's not!! i'm not!!

i do like spending time with my family though. as long as we don't argue. which tends to happen.

the adventures of allison and justine

2004-12-08T22:25:00.000-05:00

allison and i went on an adventure tonight. first we went to the library to return the 8 billion books allison took out. then it was onwards to fairview. yes. the amusement never ends i tell you! we had 2 missions:

1) Don't die!

2) Get Allison an Elliot Smith CD.

well, we accomplished one of the missions. and it wasn't getting Allison an Elliot Smith CD. but that's ok. we saw many a people we knew, including Mitch, who is now my west island friend cause he lives on the west island, and he's going to see alexisonfire. just like me!!! wow. i also discovered that mat-kid works at music world, which is awesome.

and! foufs tommorow! word is, everyone from dawson is going to be there. who is everyone? well i don't know exactly, but i'm assuming that means all the 3ird floor kids, including the sketch that lurks in the corners and the sleaze that comes from concordia. but i mean, who cares if they are going to be there... usually when someone says everyone, it means cool people! pshh...

i am so depressed right now, so if someone doesn't mind shooting me in the head right now well that would be ok with me.

allison rocks (my socks)

2004-12-06T22:30:00.000-05:00

leave is up to allison to come across something like this...

yay dead people are dancing.

hilarity ensues here

ketchup

2004-12-05T20:54:00.000-05:00

i found a package of ketchup on my desk, and it's sort of amusing to squish it around. i just hope it doesn't burst all over me and the computer screen. that wouldn't be a good thing.

i am trying to avoid studying at all costs. i don't know why. the task of studying just seems so... daunting. looks like i am succeeding. by posting a picture of a ketchup bottle.

i also just realized that psych classes are making me somewhat nerdy.

oh the madness!

2004-12-04T21:58:00.000-05:00

ok. so i will be the first to admit that last night's post was well... lets just say that rationality didn't quite kick in when it should have. nonetheless, i will say this: i didn't write what i wrote to get attention or to have people feel sorry for me, i wrote it because i needed to vent. and i think it helped, ALOT. so onto other things...

at some point in time, i had a very big crush on a guy, whose name i will not disclose, for certain reasons. his identity is un-important. yes, i did see him today. and isn't much that i can say except: wow. he had bedhead. it was so.fucking.sexy

and i almost melted... oh my...

i also saw Ryan Gray. twice. does anyone remember him? president of st. thomas... i don't recall what year this was. i was in the seventh grade though. and do you know why i remember him? because a certain someone (Theresa) had a mad crush on him... and she didn't even GO to st. thomas yet... haha... Theresa... do you remember all this? you had better.

i miss foufs

fuck you

2004-12-04T02:52:00.000-05:00

i am so fucking... i don't know. upset? angry? i can't even tell anymore. i have so much to say and i don't even know where to start, so i will just start randomly and work my way along from there.... (beware, this is a LONG one!!!)

ok. so clydes tonight. what a fucking mistake. you know, i went, because i wasn't in a good mood, and my friends said it would be "fun" so i was like well ok, maybe my friends will cheer me up. gee justine, you know better than that! i should say "friends" because fuck, you know, i care about my friends, and if something is wrong with one of them, i ask them about it, and make sure they are alright. but you know, my fucking "friends" couldnt fucking care less, and no i am NOT writting this for attention, it just makes me fucking mad that they could care so little. i mean they BARELY talked to me, they were more interested in talking to some guy, and then some other guy... it's like, we spent literally i think over an HOUR talking with some guy Tim, well they did, fucking obsessing over him, like he wasn't that fucking great or anything, they were all over him, and its like.. what the fuck. i don't come to clydes to watch my friends fucking be all over some guy... ooooo he's writting a BOOK... and they said they would so read it... yea fucking right, your just saying that cause you think he's hot. it was SO lame. and you know what, i know they won't read this, but even if they fucking do by some weird chance, at least they will know how i feel. even when i left they were still talking to him and they barely said goodbye. i was just STANDING there most of the time watching them talk to him and they didnt even say 2 words to me... yea... really great time i had. and THEN, this guy, pat, wouldnt even come outside with me when i was leaving... i don't know why... whatever... you know, everyone doesn't have to be a fucking asshole with me all at once, you can all have your fucking turn, fuck, you know, argh i am so fucking mad, its like, why bother having friends who don't give a fucking shit, you know i bet if i died in my sleep tonight they would just continue on as if nothing happened, and again, i am NOT writting this for attention or anything, i am just stating what i honestly believe to be the truth. so whatever. i don't care anymore. they can go to hell. everyone can go to hell. and then this guy, who used to work at the video store, jordan, i was talking with him, and he was a really nice guy, and he told me my voice was cute! and he asked me for my number, and i told him i was just in a bad spot right now and it wasnt a good idea, which is the honest to fucking god truth, i doubt he believes me, but its TRUE and next time i see him im going to definetly tell him that, cause i feel so bad, he is a super nice guy, its just that i cant handle like.. anything right now. and im sure half this post makes zero sense, but i don't fucking care, i am tipsy, not drunk.. oh yea~! that reminds me, another reason i am pissed. k so, cass says shes goin to come pick up me and chels at my place, and then we are going to go to chels's so she can do cass's makeup... and of course, cass only shows up at 10:30pm, which means we would miss $8 pitchers (cause it ends at 11pm) and i was like to her, "we're going to miss $8 pitchers!" and she was all pissed, saying "well the roads were slippery you know!" but see, if she WASNT driving, she would have made it a point to make it before 11pm so we could GET $8 pitchers, but since she wasnt, she didnt fucking care WHAT time she got there cause she wasnt gonna drink that much! and you know, i don't feel like paying fucking $15 for a pitcher, but no, of course that doesnt matter to her, because she HAS to get her makeup done by chels.. like... its a fucking bar, its dark, you cant even tell the DIFFERENCE... oh my god... like... she could have done her makeup at home. but no of course not. so yea. that's all. oh and ONE more thing... fuck... mike calls me, to find out where patrick is, and i fucking HATE when people call me to find out other peoples whereabouts, so i just got mad and hung up on him, and then he got, god knows who, some GIRL to call me back, maybe his gf, maybe christine, i don't even know, i hung up on her too. god dammnit i hate people. most people. holly i miss you :( wow this post took me 20 minutes to type... jeebus

aww cute an egg with legs!

2004-12-03T01:07:00.000-05:00

it's Sheldon!!!!

anyone remember him? if you don't, you damned well should... Garfield man! the good old days!

buddy!

2004-12-02T10:01:00.000-05:00

this is my doggy :) his name is Buddy.

i love him to bits and pieces!!!

isn't my life just FASCINATING?? not.

2004-11-30T20:20:00.000-05:00

so, ian asked me if he could borrow my uber cool ataris tee shirt. i mean, this shirt is so cool. and like impossible to find on top of that... i bought it when i went to see them when i was 15. so anyway, i said yes, and in return, he is giving me a patch that says:

i'm an emo kid

how cool is that! i'm excited. that, and i got my alexisonfire ticket!!!!!!

well time to watch degrassi.

oh my... i am disturbed

2004-11-29T16:29:00.000-05:00

ok. so this is what i come home to:

gabe and julia's shoes are in the entranceway. the house reeks of alcohol.

gabe: (from living room) justine?
me: yes?
gabe: justine, if i were you i'd go downstairs!
me: dear god... oh my god... gabe... the house reeks of alcohol... and you and julia are in the living room doing god knows what... and i don't want to know... and moms going to be home in less than an hour... and oh god... i don't want to know... you are my brother... this isn't right!!!
gabe: go downstairs justine.

I AM SO DISTURBED RIGHT NOW!!!!!!
THIS IS NOT FUNNY!!!!!
THIS IS WRONG!!!!!!

this rocks.

2004-11-28T18:46:00.000-05:00

I FOUND MY CLOCKWORK ORANGE DVD!!!

yes, you read correctly. how happy am i?!? very.

alex needs someone to steal his virginity.

pat needs to make a blog.

hugo needs to stop calling me emo.

that is all.

donnie darko

2004-11-28T02:05:00.000-05:00

so i just finished watching donnie darko... everyone had seen it, it seemed, except for me. it was time. and what can i say. it was really fucking good, just like everyone said it was. really well done. the only thing i didn't like about it was that it was somewhat vague... but i didn't have a hard time understanding. if you just stop and think about things, they usually become clear. so yup. i don't really feel like critiquing the movie... that's boring... i'm tired...

jake gyllenhaal is hot...

believe in me, cause i don't believe in anything...

2004-11-27T01:50:00.000-05:00

ok. so i am totally confused right now. and drunk. oh dear, not a good combination. it's a good thing i can still type. not very fast, but i am going to make a serious attempt at NOT making any spelling mistakes. ok. so here's the deal:

i went to clydes tonight. clydes. what can i say about clydes? i don't like it there. not many people do. it's so....... west island. YES that is the PERFECT thing to say about clydes. and its very very very true. i mean, there was a guy smoking a fucking cigar there. jeebus. what the hell... i don't know. you wouldn't see anyone smoking a cigar at foufs, would you? no! you know why? because it's foufs. anyway. i'm sorry. this was my clydes rant. i didn't have too bad a time though... i went with johnny, and matt libero, and johanne. it was decent. oh yea! except for the fact that like, EVERYONE from st. thomas was there! i am not joking. everyone. IT WAS SO SCARY!!! it was some peoples birthdays or something... oh dear. i tried my best to ignore it though. high school brings back bad, bad, bad memories. i cannot stress this more. i wasn't even supposed to go out this weekend, it's supposed to be my break, but alas, i couldn't NOT go out. i mean, cmon. stay home? and do what exactly? yea thats what i thought. besides, the alcohol makes me forget about... well we won't go there right now. although on the way home i recall wishing a car would run me over... but uhh, we'll blame that one on the alcohol. ok? ok cool. and you know what? i read other peoples blogs, and they seem so... i don't know. they use lots of intelligent words, to the point where it seems like they plan what they are going to write. you know, like an essay or something. fuck this is not a fucking essay. this is me ranting about god knows what. i don't really know where i'm going with this. i wish there were people awake i could talk to... i need to talk to someone. i guess that is obvious, since i am writting so fucking much. but who is going to read this? no one. hahaha. well that's ok i don't really mind, this is sort of like talking to someone, an tommorow i can read this and laugh at my stupid drunk self. wow i am so glad that school is almost over. maybe tommorow i will make a half-assed attempt at a semi-intelligent post? i will be like those emo kids, and write things like... oh i am so emo, it hurts, oh people envy me because i have cool hair, oh i wish that people were as cool as me, i am too cool for the world, definetly. oh my.

ps

i need to get inked real soon. and i also want a new piercing. even though i never heal. that doesn't fucking matter. piercings are the ultimate.

argh!!!

2004-11-25T21:40:00.000-05:00

people who act like they are smart, by saying so-called "intelligent" things, but really aren't should go to hell.

i can see right though you.

hmm

2004-11-25T10:38:00.000-05:00

somebody i really DON'T like was in my dream last night... and now i feel kinda icky. it wasn't a sexual dream or anything, but this person was just.... there.. and it bothers me.

my "first" post

2004-11-24T20:56:00.000-05:00

ok so this isn't my actual first post, but whatever. that first one was for theresa, to aide her in her quest to make it to egypt. lets all hope she makes it. in one piece. i'm tired, school is finally almost over... what else? oh! yea no one will be reading this except me. but thats ok... i think...

and yes i am well aware that like EVERYONE has the same background for their blog. so when i get un-lazy enough, i will make a cool one ok! hey man, i added colour to mine...

tips for mailing yourself to another country

2004-11-24T19:51:00.000-05:00

1 - Make the box big enough to fit you! This one is important. don't just use any old box you find lying around your basement. I suggest a fridge box or something of similar size...

2 - Make sure you put holes in the box! These are good for breathing, and peeing. You don't want to suffocate to death in a urine soaked box do you???

3 - Make sure you put enough stamps on the box to sufficiantly pay for your way their! Wouldn't it suck, getting out of the box after a week and discovering you've been shipped back home?

4 - Only bring the necessities, and don't forget FOOD. This could come in handy

and finally...

5 - Don't forget to mail yourself to the right country.